FREEDOM

So much has happened since I last wrote here. My No Evidence of Disease Status is officially up in the air again. You would think I would be crushed or upset but I simply am not. I am at peace with whatever is going on. Let me fill you in a bit though.

My CT scan last month still showed NED in my chest but did see the 1.2cm liver lesion that was there in all my other images but didn’t show up on the PET/CT in November. It’s possible this lesion was just too small for the PET to pick up because it doesn’t pick up under 1cm apparently or the lesion could be dead tumor tissue that my body hasn’t cleared out yet. I’m not really concerned about it to be honest with you.

I did start doing IV vitamin C twice weekly  last month to combine that with the doxycycline that I am taking. Why? Well, combining doxycycline with IV vitamin C actually kills the cancer stem cells in laboratory settings! Check out the details in this article.  I don’t know that any human trials have tested this theory but it seems to be working for others so while I’m taking doxycycline as part of me “metabolic” treatments, I figured I might as well hit it hard with IVC twice a week! This week I will be switching things up just a bit in that I will do IVC once a week and then a HOCATT machine once a week. What on earth is a HOCATT???? Check it out It seems to be highly detoxifying which is something I intuitively feel my body desperately needs right now.

In addition to that pesky liver spot, I have also developed some sort of mass/lump between the skin of my left breast and my implant. It appeared rather suddenly although that specific area has been tender since my surgery over two years ago. It wasn’t until January that I felt something growing there. There is a spot next to it where my skin has also become discolored. So…..I told my oncologist who put in an order for an ultrasound and mammogram. I had the ultrasound today and the radiologist felt certain it is not simply scar tissue but could be either a localized recurrence or a reaction to my implant. They saw that the skin all around the implant had thickened and I explained how that implant was ill-fitting and folds over on itself so she said it is reasonable to assume it could be my body rejecting the implant or there could be an implant rupture behind the mass. Either way, she wants a biopsy of the mass to know exactly what we are dealing with and how to treat it.

The good news in all of this was that they didn’t see any lymph nodes that looked angry or involved. In fact, they were able to see the cluster of three tumors they’d discovered at my re-diagnosis but they were smaller than before and the smallest was wispy which can indicate it is disintegrating. She said the fact that they are smaller and all my imaging has come back negative, she’s not concerned and they are likely dead tissue (which lines up with the possibility of the liver lesion being dead too and enforces my gut feeling that my body needs help detoxing).

So now I wait for a biopsy. I was really hoping I was done with those but……I was wrong! I know many, if not most, in my shoes would be FREAKING OUT right now. Even my ultrasound tech commented on how much I’ve been through and how complicated my cancer history has been….I’m a rare duck! Seriously though, through this journey, I have grown so much as a person, a wife, a mother, a friend, and as a daughter of King Jesus.

Today God gave me these verses in 2 Corinthians 3:17-18  and he assured me, “Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. And we all, with unveiled face, beholding the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from one degree of glory to another. For this comes from the Lord who is the Spirit.”   I’ve read these verses before and the went in one ear and out the other but this morning, I saw them through new eyes. I realized that in the past 6 weeks while I’ve been waiting for this ultrasound (long story on why it took so long), I have experienced this FREEDOM as the Lord has been transforming my mind. He has given me FREEDOM from worry, anxiety, doubt, depression, anger, and much more. If you are reading this and you have or are facing a cancer diagnosis, YOU KNOW those feelings and emotions. YOU KNOW they can be all consuming. To be able to sit here and tell you that I have complete freedom from those emotions that would otherwise steal my joy and quite literally make me even more ill, is nothing short of a miracle. That doesn’t “just happen.” That, my friends, is the power of the Holy Spirit and our Lord….Jehovah-jireh…God who provides. 

I will update when I know more about the biopsy but until then, I leave you with this awesome pictures of me in my scrubs before my ultrasound….haha!  Until next time….Shalom!

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3 thoughts on “FREEDOM

  1. Be sure to use drugs that inhibit tumor seeding that can happen from biopsies, just in case the lump is tumor tissue: prescription NSAIDS, for example, both before and after. Pectasol-C gets mentioned a lot but I would not rely on just that.

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    1. Yes! I already take NSAIDS and will definitely continue. I do have pectssol-C as well and will probably take that as a precautionary measure too 🙂 Thank you for pointing those out! I should explain how those work when I post about the biopsy!

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